Schizophrenia!!!

ish ish~~!!!!!!!!
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continue to cheat myselF.........
i dont know wat to do liao.......sot jor.......
i wan to ask ,,,love can be control???
i think i need to continue to cheat myself...
coz i know even i fall into someone, someone oso wont accept me.,,
dont fall into something that not even bring a hapi ending.
continue to cheat myselF...!!!!!!!! this is the best thing that i capable of.
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Fuckin; Emo these days... dont know !!!!!
i thought im the one who was rasional...
:S
but things happen so sudden and quickly...
i know one thing that i should give all my love to God,,, so that i wont think so much anymore.
Lose control le.......
Schizophrenia!!!

Emotional Meltdown...

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i dont know why i act like emo and moody recently.
really upset lah.
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dont know what to do liao...
cause these days (holiday) r sucks
heard my sis and mom talking bad behind of my bro for one week..
even though i dont know how they can talk non-stop about my bro.
kesian him.
anyway i wish my bro happy birthday over here. hes 911.
my sis and mom dislike me cause i showed my eccentricity towards my bro.
and then, another matter was, i quarrel again with my mom and sis just now.
unlike quarreling and squabbing around, i think more likely scolded by them.
they cop out on the plan that travel with me in japan on December.
At 1st, they promised to let me go.
but now...........guess what. i dont think i can go anymore.
DIE.
nearly cant online to speak out my feeling.
just i dont know what im thinkin' already.
In a usual situation, i will getting angry and furious.
but now,,, my mind start bottling already! @.@